Fluidity

Fluidity

Some days feel pointless. I wake up and I wonder what I am doing. I get this hopeless sense that life is meaningless.  When I am in this place, I feel like it is going to stay that way. I feel stuck. It feels like there is nobody or no thing that will ever be able to...
Completing the circuit

Completing the circuit

Dream: There is some type of electric machine that I am hooking a man to. I’m testing it to see if it’s working right. There are other people watching to see if it will work. I need to hook myself up so that I will be connected to the man but first I have to turn on...
Shutting up the kitten

Shutting up the kitten

Dream: There is a kitten that keeps meowing. I want her to shut up. I get so angry that I open her mouth a little too wide and I hurt her jaw. The kitten turns into a little girl (maybe 4 or 5). She looks so sad. I feel bad. I realize what I did. I say, “I’m sorry....
Sorry and joy

Sorry and joy

“The deeper the sorrow, the greater the joy.”  -William Blake Over the past few weeks I’ve felt deep sorrow and great joy. Deep sorrow and grief were expected but I did not know that I could also feel joy in the wake of the death of my father. On the day that Dad...
The holding place

The holding place

Like dreams, poems have a certain mystery to them for me. My Dad loved poems. He felt the mystery of them too. A couple of years ago, I was looking for ways to connect with Dad so I took a poetry class. One day, I invited him along and that opened up something new...