September, 2009

Mark and I leave for a trip to Greece. I am turning 50 and I have asked for this trip instead of a party.

We are met at the airport by one of Mark’s business associates. She drives us to a printing plant where Mark consults with the plant manager. I go outside to wait for him and take in the beautiful surroundings. It is a blue skied, sunny morning – about 10AM. I end up having an amazing experience while waiting there. I am sitting on a wide ledge and decide to lie back and take in the sun. As I lie back, with arms outstretched, I begin to imagine what it would feel like if I were lying there naked (my dream homework). As I imagine into this idea, I sense a surge of joy, pleasure, heart opening …. words can’t describe. Is this really happening?

Now its time to go and the taxi is there to pick us up and take us to our hotel. During the half hour ride, the sunny skies change to clouds and open up with a huge thunderstorm. It begins raining so hard that the streets are flooding, covering the pedestrians’ ankles. I sit there in the car looking out the window, taking in the pounding rain. Every nerve ending in my body is buzzing. The experience is surreal. It’s almost too much for me to take.

This experience sets the stage for our 12 days in Greece. I have a sense of joy and excitement for my life that feels new to me. It all feels like a dream. Every experience that I have I love. I feel so grateful for my life. When we return from Greece I am on such a high. But with that comes the fear that the feelings might fade.